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Once we we become aware and know something, we can't 'unknow' it, and it is only from that place we begin to change.
Becoming aware is scary sometimes. We humans have built in denial...which at times comes in handy and has it's place in our lives. It protects us emotionally until we are truly ready to look at the truth. Sometimes though, circumstances beyond our control are thrust upon us to jolt us out of our denial and into awareness. When we are not willing to see the truth within ourselves and certain circumstances, we stay stuck in the same old cycles and rob ourselves of the opportunity to grow.
Denial keeps us safe from experiencing uncomfortable truths and the feelings that arise from accepting that truth. Awareness allows us the opportunity to change, and this is important now. Especially now. Our world is a mess and as the truth continues to be revealed in that respect, our souls are waking up and remembering why we came here. If not remembering, at least questioning. We can't really find the answers for ourselves though, until we are willing to be honest with ourselves.
When we get to the place where we can no longer deny what we see and know to be true, we begin to change and grow. We can't change what we don't acknowledge. This means taking responsibility for our actions and instead of pointing our fingers 'out there' at someone else or the circumstances, we would better serve ourselves and the world by pointing it back at ourselves.
The 'tragedies' that are happening are all a call to an awakening. The latest being the shooting at a school in Conneticut, or the one before that in a movie theater. Instead of pointing a finger at the 'bad guy', we need to stop and say, how has it come to this? What can I do to help? Maybe we can spend more time with the kids instead of plunking them in front of a tv and allowing the electronic world of violent games and non-reality teach them because we don't have time or energy. Maybe we can teach by our own actions. Maybe we can stop playing the victim so they don't learn to be the victim. Maybe we can turn off the tv and not buy into the fear and drama and our victimhood. Maybe we can pray. Maybe we can use the pain to push us to be better, and do better. Maybe we can do alot of things.
I don't have everything all figured out....not even close. I only have my own life experiences to draw from and the fact that I made a clear decision to change my life and become who I came here to be. It's been scary and fun and will continue until I leave this world I'm sure. What I can share with you is what has helped me the most and that is to be self aware. To be willing to look at my short comings and the mistakes I've made along the way, and embrace the fact that I am human which means I have come here with an ego. We all have one. The danger lies in living in that ego part (shadow side) more than I live in my love part (light side). We are duality as is our outside world. There is no 'us' and 'them'...there is just 'us'. We all have experienced jealousy, anger, guilt, shame, fear, rage and moments of insanity right? So does every human, so how can we point at others with a finger of blame? We are not our Creator, we are a likeness of, that is why we were sent here. It is not in the human job description to judge another, I'm pretty sure of that, and the more we are willing to see the not so pretty parts of ourselves and learn to be self aware, self accepting and take responsibility for our part, we become more compassionate for ourselves, therefore others.
To continue to buy into fear, drama and victimhood keeps us powerless. To pay attention to the lives of others and remain in denial about ourselves keeps us powerless. To stand in a place of self righteousness keeps us powerless. We are no better or worse than the next guy. We just are who we are and we all walk our own path, in the circle of life no one is ahead or behind anyone else, that is an illusion. We are all somehow able to justify our actions even when they seem unforgiveable to others. We have all cheated, lied, hated, and hurt others along the way. It's part of the deal, so we can learn to better ourselves. If we've all cheated, lied, hated and hurt others, how can we possibly look at someone or something that is doing the same and judge that? All we can do is honor the journey of another and go back to work on ourselves honoring where we are on ours. We have no idea what another person's soul's contract is....that is between them and our Creator.
Being 'aware' of what is happening inside and outside of us as the truth surfaces, is pushing us to change whether we like it or not. Standing up for what we believe in is part of the awareness, but it must be done from a place of love for that belief or passion, not from a place of fear or anger. Anger and fear can't be resolved with anger and fear it can only be resolved with love and courage...both of which come from within.
There is this illusion that we are small and can't make a difference in such a huge world with so many injustices and issues, when we are actually the ones who have come to make a difference, and much of the work to be done is within. One person at a time. The most important commitment I've ever made is the one I've made to myself and my healing journey which is ongoing. If we all make that commitment to ourselves first, I believe we will see the world eventually change for the better, after all the world outside of us is simply a reflection of us.
Here's what I know for sure. That none of us here and now will know the full 'truth' of anything until it is our turn to cross over. It will only be at that time that our souls will be privy to the bigger picture. Until then we can only do the best we can to make this a better world and it begins by moving out of denial and into awareness, healing our own lives and doing our part to help others along the way.
Peace, Love and Awareness
It's my sincere hope that sharing my perspective and personal experiences on my own journey to myself, helps you on yours. Peace, Love and Sharing