We've certainly been through some rough terrain lately...some are struggling in this heart opening energy while others are feeling more free than they ever have.  And it's all okay.

Sometimes we can feel like we don't have a 'right' to feel happy and joyful when others are moving through tough emotions like sadness and grief but we do.  It's important to remember that we are each on our own journey and that will bring what it brings.  Our individual times and experiences of 'pain' are there for us to move through and become stronger in the end, and we all experience our times of struggle and pain at different times.  It's important for us to have compassion for the people in our world (some we know, some we don't) who are being pushed into uncomfortable territory for their soul's growth but we don't have to take it on.

It seems we humans sometimes 'feel bad' when they are experiencing joy and happiness in their world while others are suffering.  What if our happiness and joy energy is helping to carry others through their hard times?  It wouldn't be productive to feel bad for feeling good if that is the case.  If we can be in our high spirit energy without guilt we can use it knowing we are lifting the energy of others while they are down.  When we are down they might be up and helping to lift our energy.  Even though it is an 'unseen' thing, doesn't mean it's not happening?!

So if you are going through a difficult time in your life, know that others along with Spirit are helping to carry you.  And if you are happy and high on life...bask in it!!  Get as high as you can without feeling bad, knowing that you are helping to carry them.

It's all about living in our hearts right now.  When I went through some of my hardest times, spinning in a deep dark hole not seeing even a glimmer of light, I can see now I was being broken open.  Being made to 'feel' even though those feelings didn't feel good at ALL they were still feelings.  Something I'd spent most of my life trying my hardest to avoid.  I'm grateful now and can see so clearly that our hearts must be cracked open in order to let the light in so we can eventually reach a feeling of peace, love, and compassion for ourselves and others.  That's why we came here.  To live in our hearts and it's happening, it just doesn't always feel good when we're being broken open.  Those harder times also showed me who the people were who gave a shit and had my back.  I wouldn't trade that for anything now because I had things all mixed up.

Our hardest experiences are often there for us to grow through and heal from so we can help others once we are in a good place again.  We can't do that if we let our experiences break us down...we can only move through them keeping in mind that we are being asked to become stronger, to be role models for the others.  Mostly our young ones.  If they see us get healthy and strong through our painful times, it gives them hope and they will know they can do it too.  If we give up, they give up.  They will be the leaders one day.

If you're happy and high on life...SOAR, laugh, and play and don't feel bad about it.  Our happiness is infectious and contagious!  If you're experiencing hard emotions now or lately, hang on, keep the faith, and you will move through it to a better place. You'll see.

Peace, Love and Let Your Spirit Soar

Once we we become aware and know something, we can't 'unknow' it, and it is only from that place we begin to change.

Becoming aware is scary sometimes.  We humans have built in denial...which at times comes in handy and has it's place in our lives.  It protects us emotionally until we are truly ready to look at the truth.  Sometimes though, circumstances beyond our control are thrust upon us to jolt us out of our denial and into awareness.  When we are not willing to see the truth within ourselves and certain circumstances, we stay stuck in the same old cycles and rob ourselves of the opportunity to grow.

Denial keeps us safe from experiencing uncomfortable truths and the feelings that arise from accepting that truth.  Awareness allows us the opportunity to change, and this is important now.  Especially now.  Our world is a mess and as the truth continues to be revealed in that respect, our souls are waking up and remembering why we came here.  If not remembering, at least questioning.  We can't really find the answers for ourselves though, until we are willing to be honest with ourselves.  

When we get to the place where we can no longer deny what we see and know to be true, we begin to change and grow.  We can't change what we don't acknowledge.  This means taking responsibility for our actions and instead of pointing our fingers 'out there' at someone else or the circumstances, we would better serve ourselves and the world by pointing it back at ourselves.  

The 'tragedies' that are happening are all a call to an awakening.  The latest being the shooting at a school in Conneticut, or the one before that in a movie theater.  Instead of pointing a finger at the 'bad guy', we need to stop and say, how has it come to this?  What can I do to help?  Maybe we can spend more time with the kids instead of plunking them in front of a tv and allowing the electronic world of violent games and non-reality teach them because we don't have time or energy.  Maybe we can teach by our own actions.  Maybe we can stop playing the victim so they don't learn to be the victim.  Maybe we can turn off the tv and not buy into the fear and drama and our victimhood.  Maybe we can pray.  Maybe we can use the pain to push us to be better, and do better. Maybe we can do alot of things.

I don't have everything all figured out....not even close.  I only have my own life experiences to draw from and the fact that I made a clear decision to change my life and become who I came here to be.  It's been scary and fun and will continue until I leave this world I'm sure.  What I can share with you is what has helped me the most and that is to be self aware.  To be willing to look at my short comings and the mistakes I've made along the way, and embrace the fact that I am human which means I have come here with an ego.  We all have one.  The danger lies in living in that ego part (shadow side) more than I live in my love part (light side).  We are duality as is our outside world.  There is no 'us' and 'them'...there is just 'us'.  We all have experienced jealousy, anger, guilt, shame, fear, rage and moments of insanity right?  So does every human, so how can we point at others with a finger of blame? We are not our Creator, we are a likeness of, that is why we were sent here.  It is not in the human job description to judge another, I'm pretty sure of that, and the more we are willing to see the not so pretty parts of ourselves and learn to be self aware, self accepting and take responsibility for our part, we become more compassionate for ourselves, therefore others.  

To continue to buy into fear, drama and victimhood keeps us powerless.  To pay attention to the lives of others and remain in denial about ourselves keeps us powerless.  To stand in a place of self righteousness keeps us powerless.  We are no better or worse than the next guy.  We just are who we are and we all walk our own path, in the circle of life no one is ahead or behind anyone else, that is an illusion.  We are all somehow able to justify our actions even when they seem unforgiveable to others.  We have all cheated, lied, hated, and hurt others along the way.  It's part of the deal, so we can learn to better ourselves.  If we've all cheated, lied, hated and hurt others, how can we possibly look at someone or something that is doing the same and judge that?  All we can do is honor the journey of another and go back to work on ourselves honoring where we are on ours. We have no idea what another person's soul's contract is....that is between them and our Creator.

Being 'aware' of what is happening inside and outside of us as the truth surfaces, is pushing us to change whether we like it or not.  Standing up for what we believe in is part of the awareness, but it must be done from a place of love for that belief or passion, not from a place of fear or anger.   Anger and fear can't be resolved with anger and fear it can only be resolved with love and courage...both of which come from within.  

There is this illusion that we are small and can't make a difference in such a huge world with so many injustices and issues, when we are actually the ones who have come to make a difference, and much of the work to be done is within.  One person at a time.  The most important commitment I've ever made is the one I've made to myself and my healing journey which is ongoing.  If we all make that commitment to ourselves first, I believe we will see the world eventually change for the better, after all the world outside of us is simply a reflection of us.

Here's what I know for sure.  That none of us here and now will know the full 'truth' of anything until it is our turn to cross over.  It will only be at that time that our souls will be privy to the bigger picture.  Until then we can only do the best we can to make this a better world and it begins by moving out of denial and into awareness, healing our own lives and doing our part to help others along the way. 

Peace, Love and Awareness

We humans are living on this Earth at a time of great change.  It's been gaining momentum for some time and has many feeling deep fear about what is coming.  All this talk about the end of the world, mostly due to the day the Mayan people ended a calendar many moons ago has raised the question globally.  I've wondered myself about the meaning and while I don't know anything for sure, I also know no other human knows anything about this 'for sure'. Only Creator and all who stand behind us in the Spirit world are privy to the true answer, while we humans shape a perspective based on what we feel or what we've been shown.

The universe works in cycles, as do we.  Seasons work in cycles, women's moontime works in cycles, we grow in cycles (infant, youth, adult, elder), there are astrological cycles, and cycles of life and death.  All cycles mean change, and change oftentimes means fears surface as the old falls away to make way for the new.  This is simply the end of a cycle on Earth from where I sit.  It's been happening for awhile already like a momentum of heart opening energy gaining speed, with this date as a marker point perhaps for everything coming to a head and the people standing up for themselves and their beliefs.  

Spirit has shown me for years now over and over again that my soul will leave my body here when I am 84 years old.  That may sound crazy to some but it's my reality.  I used to think it sucked actually because I have spent most of my life not particularly wanting to be here in this body on this earth.  I'm not sure why I've been shown this, perhaps so that I sucked it up and kept putting one foot in front of other, or maybe because I needed to know I would live through this 'end of the world stuff'?  What I can tell you is I finally feel excited to be here and live my life!  

Many people from many cultures have some form of ancient knowledge about this time of change on Earth.  I believe our souls chose to be here now, especially those who care about Mother Earth, the animals, and the next generations.  Which is why I think we are being pushed out of our comfort zones to move past our fears, speak up and do what we agreed to come here to do.  Basically to get our heads out of our asses, quit watching 'reality tv' and buying more 'stuff' while we turn a blind eye to what is really going on.

There is a Buddha saying that comes to mind that I feel really fits these times we are living through: "Three things cannot be long hidden, the sun, the moon, and the truth".  Truth is what is surfacing now.  All the dark within us and the world is coming to light.  It's time.  We have allowed ourselves to be lied to and controlled by our governments and the powers who run the world, for far too long but now the lies are surfacing and we are forced to no longer go along like robotic sheep while we standby and watch.  We have come not to fight, but to take a stand for whatever we feel passionate about.

I mean we've got some crazy ass stuff going on here on this planet, it's become so unbalanced and out of control.  There are many humans starving on Earth and no mouth should be hungry; we would be led to believe our drug industry is actually helping us when for the most part is making us more sick; we continue to allow the raping and poisoning of Mother Earth as government continues to pull the wool over the sheeps eyes so to speak; we kill animals for fun or from a place of fear without a second thought, as if they don't have a right to be here? (God made them just like he made us); humans are bought and sold daily in slavery rings; our food is being manipulated and poisoned so we get sick in order to fuel the pharmaceutical industry (to even call most of what we eat 'food' and most pharmaceuticals 'medicine' is beyond bizarre; we have organized war that costs about the same amount it would cost to feed the starving.  I could go on but I won't.  The point is, we have come to a breaking point in history and we get to be here for it!!  How cool is that?  

Sometimes I think about what those in the Spirit World see as they watch us.  I'm pretty sure Creator/God/Source or whatever you believe in, doesn't see lines on the Earth saying this belongs to me and this belongs to you, and you can't cross this line unless you follow the 'rules'.  I'm pretty sure they see souls and the spirit of our hearts in humans and not skin color or how or where we pray (if you pray).  I'm pretty sure that Earth is the most toxic planet in the solar system and the only reason it is so, is because it is inhabited by humans who's egos have gotten a little out of control, ok, alot.  And I'm pretty sure no one is coming to save us except us.  

It's my belief (and I am well aware not everyone shares in my belief and that's a-o-k with me!) that the way forward is one of heart, and that we will see peace on this earth when each and every one of us makes a commitment to find peace inside ourselves.  This is going to take work., by way of self awareness, practicing forgiveness (of self first), kindness, finding what brings us joy, acceptance of ourselves therefore others, and love, love, love.  The more we become aware of our own egos and face the dark side of our humanness (which we ALL have) and embrace that part of us versus fueling that part of us, we slowly get there, layer by layer. If there are shake ups in your life, loss or forced change, it is there to push your soul to live up to your promise and when we begin to live our lives aligned with our souls, things start to feel better and get easier to handle.  

I believe the way forward lies in looking back at the Ancestors and how they understood that everything on the Earth was connected.  They understood how to live simply and that the Earth and Creator provided what was needed.  They respected all living things and had a deep connection with the Spirit World through drumming, dancing, ceremony and prayer.  Things got all messed up and now here we are.

There is a planetary alignment that will take place on December 21, 2012 (winter solstice) which marks the end of the Mayan calendar.  This is a true turning point in the Earth's history and the beginning of a new world.  How do we want this world to look?  That is the question and it's up to us.

Peace, Love and Change 

We can look at what we didn't do, or we can look at what we DID do...we can look at what we lost, or we can be excited about what we are about to gain...we can look at the past or we can anticipate our great future.

We have just come out of a mercury retrograde phase and eclipse season...where we've all, no doubt, gone through circumstances which has tested our strength and had some 'past' feelings and issues surfacing giving us the opportunity to shed yet another layer of our old selves and old circumstances.

I dipped and dived into those waters myself for a few days.  Reflecting on what was or what could have been, as it is part of our human process, it's purpose being that of personal growth.  A process for which I am most grateful for today.  Some days we get self absorbed and feel sorry for ourselves, wishing things could be different.  But they're not.  They are what they are.  It's in that acceptance where we find peace.  It's in keeping faith that all is as it's meant to be and the knowing there is a bigger plan working that we can't always see.  It's about making mistakes and learning from them, bringing ourselves to a place of knowing better so we can do better.

The trick is not getting caught up in our negative thought patterns for too long.  Just long enough to be aware of the opportunity to use them to find gratitude in our lives and to make a choice to pat ourselves on the back for our accomplishment, instead of beating ourselves up for what we know we should have done or should still do but haven't yet, or to let go of what is gone and look forward to what is yet to come.  

It can definitely be a challenge to stay positive all the time that's for sure...impossible I would say...but there's power in our awareness of those negative thought patterns surfacing.  We can notice them, acknowledge them and look at something to be grateful for.  Taking time out to nuture ourselves and just 'be' and not 'do' helps too.  It's in those quiet times where we can hear our own heartbeats, and realize we are connected to a powerful universal love energy, and truly are never alone on our journey as souls having a human experience.

I choose to be grateful today for the amazing supportive people in my life, and finding joy in the simplest things.  I choose to believe that something incredible is about to happen, and that the best of my life is yet to come.

Peace, Love and Perspective