I think two of the most powerful words in the english language put together are I AM.
We humans have this tendency to put negative words behind those two words. I AM a loser. I AM not good enough. I AM broke. I AM fat. I have caught myself over and over again over the years doing it. Mostly unaware when I was doing it. Now that I'm conscious of my thoughts, I'm able to catch myself and practice putting positive words behind those two words. :-) Yes, I said practice. Seems the saying practice makes perfect leaves the perfect as some amazing place in which we arrive one day. My experience is there is no such thing as perfect so the emphasis best be placed on 'practice'.
I AM amazing. I AM enough. I AM where I am and that's ok. I AM smart. I AM different. I AM confident. Changing the words we put behind the I AM has the power to transform our lives from one of self loathing and judgement, to one of self love. Eventually. After aLOT of practice!
So many of us walk through life thinking that we can never really live our dreams or be all we can be because we've made these huge 'mistakes' in our past. I believe the words mistake and sin fall into the same category but many have been taught that to 'sin' is unforgiveable and punishable, yet I believe all the souls here in human form have come to learn and evolve and if we never made mistakes or sinned we would not be experiencing an opportunity to grow. We feel because of our past actions, we are not worthy of good things in life because we're now such a horrible person. This isn't true and couldn't be further from the truth!
I think the ironic part is that part of the human earth life experience is to make 'mistakes'!!! This is how we learn and teach others. It's part of the deal. If we cruised through life being all perfect (there's that darn word again) then we wouldn't actually be 'experiencing' life in order to become more wise.
The trick is to know we are forgiven for whatever we think we've done that's so so so horrible! Some people's 'mistakes' are huge in society's eyes. Some people steal some people assault others, some people have deep dark addictions, some commit adultery, and some people kill people. I don't believe we are judged for our 'mistakes', I believe we are judged by what we 'learn' from our mistakes. Maybe part of your purpose is to teach criminals about turning their lives around? If that's the case, then wouldn't you have to become a criminal first?? (which would look from the outside in, as a HUGE unforgivable mistake)? If you're a goody two shoes and haven't done time and rehabilitated, what criminal would listen to you?? A criminal would listen to a reformed criminal before he's going to listen to some guy who's got no life experience!! Catch my drift ;-)
You can apply this scenario to some past 'mistake' you feel you made. Maybe you are meant to realize that you are not meant to carry shame and guilt the rest of your life, maybe you are meant to actually experience making that mistake then get up, dust yourself off (by forgiving yourself) and taking the high road. Understanding that you are NOT what you've done in your past, you truly are what you have overcome.
I've made many so called mistakes but I've chosen to learn from them and change my life so they move from being 'mistakes' to 'lessons'. Seems so many get stuck in the guilt and shame phase of the process and stay there for the rest of their lives, choosing to 'numb' themselves in various ways. It's never too late to face ourselves and face up to our past. Look it straight in the eyes and say hey, I messed up bad. Am I willing to put this behind me? If we aren't ready to face our 'mistakes', we can start with just the 'willingness' to do so. Being willing, opens a door to new possibilities for ourselves and the process can begin.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Am I willing to forgive myself and do the best I can from this day forward? How am I going to use this experience to become a stronger and better person? How can I use my life and lessons to help other people!!
No one said this life was easy, but we all signed up for it and here we are. So let's stop judging ourselves for what we've 'done', so we can stop judging others for what they've 'done'. I don't have the priviledge to see life's big picture and neither do you. Creator, Universe, God, Source or whatever you call all that is, can see the truth so we're off the hook taking on the role of Judge. Whatever is between that person's soul and Creator, is between them.
Let's take responsibility for our past actions and our future actions....and choose to overcome. On a soul level we are experiencing life on life's terms and we aren't always aware of what our soul agreed to come here to do. Lets allow ourselves to forgive ourselves, wipe the slate clean and start over, no matter how unforgiveable we may think our past actions may be! If we stay in a state of unforgiveness toward ourselves for the rest of our lives, we waste our potential to truly live the life we were meant to live.
Peace, Love and Mistakes